Creeds to live by

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Don't get get caught up in the busyness of life that you forget to enjoy life's simplest and most important of gifts

It's ok to make mistakes - own up face the music and move on

Thank you god!

I have three beautiful children, doting parents , a loving giving responsible husband, a job that i enjoy with work I believe in enough money to meet our needs - thank you god! 

I should give back to society a little! At least a little! I donate some to charity- nkf and acres 

Must do more 

Mind full

I have to stop taking things too seriously - like work! 

What can I learn from this episode? 

1. Check wordings on contracts 

2. When someone is in charge of something - let them make some decisions and then follow up with the right action too. Here Irene's idea was sound bit she didn't follow through. 

3. When someone else is in charge leg go of the reins early for them to take charge - then my head need not roll. 

Sigh. 

So now my problem is finding the cash to pay brijesh for any work he's done. Coz I asked him to do the work. 

God thanks for helping me!! Please help me. 

New maid needed

Yes we need a new maid. 

And a new set of rules for her. 

And a new way of arranging things before she comes! 

- stationery items need a place. 

- new sets of rags 

All colours and types okay for the floor but for dishes and tabletop we need a diff set . 

Don't take things personally!!!!

I must learn to distance myself from things see things in perspective and not take things personally. 

She wants whole day off. Early morning till night because she perceives a pay cut for off days. Sigh. 

Actually no big deal we can pay her 520 and give her the requested off days. We didn't coz she was leaving. So I didn't want to give extra perks but I suppose it does not matter. It irks me that she's bring calculative though. Sigh. Nvm. Nothing more than a professional relationship here. It's okay. 

Maid less in 2 years?

So can. Do it you think? 

Go maid less in 2 years ? 

 Getting prepared to want to stay home once  akshaya hits primary school - maybe when baby is two plus I could start managing on my own? 

What do I feel as a mother of three?

God has a way of making dreams come true- even those you sometimes don't dare articulate- :) 

So Aishwarya is my dream come true. As are akshaya and ashwin :) my three beautiful dreams come true. They are mine in a loose sense I do get it. Not mine to mould and shape in the way I imagine them to turn out but mine to guide with god's grace to become what they are meant to be - to bloom in the way god intends them to . 

As I look at my baby Aishwarya - what do I feel? A sense of disbelief sometimes- she has come from us! In her case especially feels like she's come with her own will! Her own speed and drive! 

She's sweet- lets me rest have personal time time with the other two-,I must admit its not as scary as I thought it would be! 

So far anyway , having three seems easier and better than having two! Touch wood ! Akshaya is more mature - falls asleep on her own after 5 years of us trying to get to this stage!!! She really helps me with the new baby. Ashwin seems ok so far - he keeps asking me - is thangachi papa licking Aatha?  Haha! How gross but that's what breastfeeding looks like to him! Akshaya used to pretend breastfeeding her dolls when she saw me doing it with ashwin as a baby! Kids are so cute! 

Then - this little one seems different from the other two in temperament and looks too- so much smaller rounder redder her face is! I call her my little red tomato! 

Will she love me? Will I love her? I do love her now of course but you know? We hardly know each other! Haha! I love akshaya and ashwin in a way i can't even begin to describe. They fill my heart to bursting . Aishwarya... She's new! Haha! Ok time to stop panicking. It was the same when ashwin was born too. I felt l never spent time with him that akshaya took all my time and attention. So I guess for me at least it's normal to lavish more time and attention on the older kids than the new baby! I recall thinking with ashwin then that I basically fed and changed him and then spent time playing with akshaya- painting , reading, etc. now with Aishwarya I'm doing the same- feed her bathe her - then spend time with the older kids- ashwin it's feeding him, reading to him and snuggling with him after his nap - with akshaya it's reading to her, helping her write her stories! And some art with both.

Feel better having come to this realization thru writing! 

More tomorrow then