Rejected poems

I still want to write but don't think I'll ever make the cut for any publication

Tired

I'm so tired.
I don't have the prospect of rest at all.
Weekend is coming and it's just more event mania
Bleah
Next break I can look forward to is next weekend only.

U S A again the sick and immoral country unsafe

The country has done it again.
They are taking away children from parents.
I cant magine that . That would surely deter other migrants from crossing. Who would want to take that risk

He can do it coz he does not care about anyone anything other than his interests. It must be the first time us has a president like that.

There but for the grace of God go I

How many of us think like that
It's so easy to ignore forget about what's happening to other people. Yo look down on them
What if we were not born here?

Instead of assessing the scale of its problems and making wise decisions ... e.g. gun problem is bigger kills more people than ever in the us and these gun shooters are not immigrant kids. Instead of taking the tough stance of removing gums from streets and homes he chooses to tackle the tough problem of immigration by separating kids from adults.
Will the border patrol guys stand up and day no
If they all strike they can't do this

My kinda day and not my kinda day

My kind of day is
The totally unscheduled one
I'm relaxed patient
I can spend time with the kids
I don't snap at them not tell at them

The minute I feel I have to get them ready to meet someone else and all I go crazy
My anxiety makes me unpredictable volatile and scary

I scared my kids yesterday so unnecessary
Coz my girl didn't smile as she went to bed.
I was at the end of my tether. All three wanted me and I just wanted to sleep
I'm also so insecure
I need my kids approval

I have to stop that. I don't need their approval. I just have to do my best for them without needing them to say thank you.
I scared them. I scared myself
I'm setting an example for them on how to behave when tired. Just shout scream bully the others.
Akshaya bullies them because I bully her.
But she's so morose. Maybe that's just her nature.
The other two are easy going
She always wants more always looks sad
Maybe that's just her.
I shouldn't take it personally.

Whatever her behaviour I had no call to he so harsh. They are terrified of me.
Now i see it. They had had a great day with me and wanted to call asleep around me.
Sigh.
I'm just awful.

And I feel so conflicted. Like. My parents aren't free  I'm so busy at work. I have a ton of things to do. And these brothers schedule an open house this weekend. And expect me to be there. But it's my part business too. It's just awful.

Food

I feel so sad
The food I make
No one at home likes

Tried making black pepper mock meat today. I thought it was good. Akshaya looked tortured. Ashwin gamely are just 2.

I've made so much not sure what to do. Should I throw it away. Pass some to Meena or my Mum? What if they hate it too.

I shall leave some for saro. Some for me. Say 8 prices total. Rest pass to my parents.