Recipe- black pepper chicken

Marinade: 

I tea sp cumin and coriander powder

1/2 tsp curry powder

2 table spoons home made crushed pepper and cumin powder

1 table spoon yogurt

1tbl sp lemon juice

1 bunch shredded coriander leaves

2 garlcs crushed ( may slip this tbd next time though) 

3, shakes cayenne pepper

1 tsp salt plus more to taste 

Toss this marinade  with the chicken ( which has been washed and cleaned with salt and manjal ) 

Them add two table spoons freshly pound black pepper

Toss thoroughly and marinate for one hour. 

Heat oil. Lots. Add black pepper thinly sliced onion and thinly sliced red pepper strips them the chicken and fry! Yummy!!! 

Love is a sacred flame

Love is a sacred flame

It burns to light the way 

God gives us children so we can know his love and his love for us

Worry

I worry that I practise favoritism between my kids:( giving in to my son at expense of my daughter:((((((

Need to feel good about myself

I woke up early pumped milk for daughter 

I went for a jog

I took my kids for a colouring competition

I brought them back home coz they were tired

I put one kid to bed while I fed another

I'm going to bathe one kid now and play a bit with her read to her

Courage and preparedness

Need to prepare before going up on stage. End of rule. 

Kinda understood the crow today in the story of the crow and the fox - my own foolish vanity! 

I don't doubt myself in that I know I will be great in a fashion contest but I need to practice and prepare. It requires courage. I am humbled today by the spunk and courage of the other ladies who went up.

Happy I put myself through this if not for anything at least to appreciate the guts of others who do so.,

I felt bad like I had neglected my kids as I went up felt I was selfish. :( need to work through those feelings I guess 

Bad mother?

I frequently am assailed by the thought that I'm a terrible mom- resorting to yelling or snapping at my kids reducing them to tears in fear of me , sometimes hitting them even. All to make them eat or sleep or something.

Today at temple both cried coz they couldn't find me at diff times:(

Package no no

Getting Mani Pedi for my mum and pedi for me- totally no professionalism! They are turning away customers left right coz they turned up without proper appointments one of their co workers hasn't come in time to collect her work permit - too stressed for a relaxed treatment! Hope Aatha enjoys it though

Over ate

Overrate and feel sick now!!

Culinary experiments during maternity

WSSome things i tried out this maternity leave: 

Baked salmon

Chicken briyani

Vanilla sponge cake 

Choc chip cookies (w) nuts

Fried rice with fish balls 

Fried veg rice

Tortilla wraps with roast peppers

Zucchini rounds- m

Zucchini pasta 

Quesadilla 

Choc cake 

Blueberry tart

Vallare thuvayal- m

Sago payasam

Kose malli

Uppuma 

Fried potatoes 

Garlic asparagus

Pasta salad

Thai Chicken green curry-m

Breaded baked chicken

Black pepper chicken 

Masala chicken- own recipe for marinade! 

Roast vege- brinjal sweet potato and peppers

Coconut crumble

It was fun!!!  I like cooking and experimenting! Best part - not everyone in my family loves what I cook so i get good honest feedback- except me of course I love what I cook! 

Adding to this post today 8 may: 

I made this chicken green curry today- first time ever and it came out ok! Good in fact! But I'm the only Thai food fan at home so others didn't like relish it like I did. Feeling sad I gobbled the whole thing myself and now I feel sick! All that coconut milk can't be good for me!!! 

One week later I've made black pepper chicken with capsicum and it was great again! Plus this time Saro loved it! Yay!

And breaded chicken- ashwin loved it!! Woo hoo! 

Resolve

Making a resolve not to yell or get mad at my kids or my mum day by day and working on it consciously moment by moment! 

Feelin happy

Happy with cooking and baking! 

Some new dishes: 

Vanilla sponge cake- success - mum loves it. 

Stir fried garlic asparagus! 

Fried fish ball rice- Saro likes it! 

Tomorrow gonna make fish parties for burgers - gotta do something with my half green pepper and half zuccini before they spoil 

Tender moments

Akshaya gives me a poem about god. 

She draws a pic of her thinking about god

Watching all three stir slowly awake on a Sunday morning 

Watching the moment they fall asleep

Watching them sprawled in bed in deep sleep

The lovely morning breath of my son! 

Tickling them mercilessly in bed 

Things I worry about

How am I bringing up my kids? 

Sometimes u feel out of my depth sometimes I feel I can't control them- they are rude at times. Spoilt. How sad! How terrible that I can say these things about my own kids without doing something about it! 

Other things

Are there in enough classes? 

Are they in too much? 

We have too many things! 

I don't set a good example to the kids