I'm listening observing and drawing some ideas on Christianity. It's simplicity really.
They pray to god for the physical bodily pains his son suffered. Human suffering. Suffering they can feel too coz it's so real so enR to them.
That this happened 2000 years ago is powerful testament to the power of the religion!
Waves crashing on a shore
An eternal rhythm
Beyond you and me
Beyond today and yesterday
Not relentless ...
just indifferent.
You saw me as a pretty face and I baffled and befuddled your expectations on every count
I never saw myself as a pretty face and thus it's taken me now 20 years to understand how and why we failed
Now you have daughters and you will never see them as pretty faces
You will love and cherish and celebrate them
And you will never realise how at one time you saw another as just a pretty face
You will never make this realisation about yourself for even I took 20 years to do so
Thank you once again and again
You have been a teacher like none other
Teaching me in ways I would never otherwise learn .
Of value and self worth
Of spite and kindness
of openness and secrecy
To not known how much is not known
To jog at midnight without a care or knowledge of all that could happen
Living fearlessly in ignorance
Only God running beside me ahead of me behind me
The arrogance of youth
The ignorance of youth
The vanity of youth
Been through it and now watch it
A stranger I must have seemed
Picking up veena at 18
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This is the way the world ends not with a bang but a whimper
Not with a boom but an achoo
That's the premise of this mind blowing book.
I don't mean the after life
I mean. retirement.
Or any other changes *touch wood
1. Learn painting
2. Learn piano
3. Write novels and poetry and short stories
4. Study further -another masters or phd in lit
Yup.
5. Travel around the world to see friends
So going for course and all that now to develop some interest for things to sustain me in my retirement. I don't want to feel all lost and rudderless should work end or other changes to the way I'm living now.
Family is important critical
But not the only thing there is in life.
Sobering truth
So now I'm going for courses for all these reason
Two tear drops just rolled down from the corner of my eyes . Stupid me. I'm missing seeing subairs daughter grow up. I'm mad that by the time I see her she's going to be not a baby anymore but a tiny toddler. A bit crazy huh. I wonder how all those grandparents with kids overseas feel when I feel like this for a friend's kid
And so another one has left. My third..first lasted 7 months. 2nd lasted 2 years 4 months. And third lasted 2 years. Today a new one arrives.
Who are these people who pass through our lives? Temporary yet permanent while here? Affecting our moods our actions shaping our thoughts our conscience?
I felt sad when the second left. No so with third. 1st I only felt a profound sense of relief. Third. Just meh. But I cared for all of course. And determined to care for the next even as I'm clearer as to what to expect. Hope she lasts the two years. But prepared foe anything.
Prayer. That's what will help.
Much is different with this one. Different country. Experienced. Married with kid. Let's see how it goes. Just hope she has some standard of cleaning! And patience with kids. And an easy going nature..honest.
