Look at your bruised eye.
Listen to your animal cry.
Feel your broken jaw.
This is not love.
Put him away.
Walk away.
Now.
Her smile cut through her bandaged face.
Oddly sharp.
She was free.
What next then?
Will it be as painful too?
Dear God
I cant sleep
My throat hurts
My mind races with all I have to do
I feel weighed down
My son cut his hair himself. Twice.
It looked awful.
I was embarrassed for him
I could have let him live with it
But I took him to the barber
And he is almost bald
Seems a harsh punishment for a playful mistake
I should have listened to saro and left it
But I didnt know
Hes going to be 8 next week and his hair looks like this
Hes going to go onstage next week and his hair looks like this
I'm mad at him
I had wanted to cut his hair after his birthday and stage performance but he rushed it first.
Now he looks like a plucked chicken a bald eagle
Sigh.
He deserves it too
I'm scared my parents are going to blame me for it. Say I'm too harsh
.I punished him too much.
Sigh.
I can't lst my fear of what others may say affect me. I can only do what i can do. .
I'm having a party at my house on Saturday
And I partly wish I wasnt
The house is still a mess
I have no idea about the menu
Work
Chapter to write
Write to yuying
The Singapore play
Check budget for lit symp
KP dialogue
Wrote to her about fuhua
When a son breaks his mothers heart
I wonder what I can do to make things better
I can pray
But thoughts and prayers only go so far
I could speak to him
It's possible he has no idea of how he hurts her or of how much she yearns for his love
I can't warn him what goes around comes around. That would put up his back
I meant to speak to him in June.
Its July now.
When should I do it.
What do I talk to him about
If I speak to him I want to do so to offer him support
I'm a coward too
Not sure if I can take his vitriol.
All I know is I cannot wait much longer.
Gonna pray and take the plunge
Meet him for coffee or at a park?
But if he turning a bit schizophrenic... it may not help to talk directly with him about the problem. May need to create a conduit for conversation and slowly build up trust. No one is going to believe or trust you coz you say trust me
The 2019 syllabus builds strength of the 2013 syllabus.
In 2013 we introduced learning outcomes for the first time
In 2019 we introduced the lrf . Streamlining to just 4 main categories of Los.
Reasons for bold change to making poetry compulsory
It must feel like flying
All that leaping and piroutting in the sky before landing on your toes
I'd break my back of i were to do it
But when I watch my son
I fly with him
Hands outstretched
Soaring defying gravity
Landing lightly
I need to pay attention to details
Of time location of meetings
A general time and day and place will not work
If I dont learn now I never will
What's the worst that can happen ?
Dell and dcpd2 will see I'm late.
They will inform Leonard.
So I need to let all three know myself.
I have let Leonard know. No lies. Just the truth.
I wish to wait till melvin comes out to speak with him about what has transpired.
Hope all goes well. I hope no questions were asked about el or lit
I hope .
Then after meeting with Melvin I shall go back to work
But the meeting our segment should have ended at 240..now its 320 and still no end in sight
I had planned for the meeting to end at 430 and for me to return home. This is terrible. I deserve it. I have been free from 11.30 and I met stupid nithya at 140 instead of rushing down in a cab. I need to get Melvin's number.
Meeting is still going on. I've obviously missed a very important and rich discussion. I am a dunce. Sigh. Am worried my bosses going to be mad at me.
What reason should I give for missing the meeting. Could I just say I was not able to attend?
I am a dunce. Dunce dunce dunce
God gave a me a chance to slip in at 2.15 PM with three other late comers. But I didnt.
Grr
I have made mistakes before. I have Intrinsic worth. I just have to see.
Whats the worst that can happen?
Dell and dcpd2 will have a poor impression of me. Its ranking time now. I'm already lowest of the 4. Just pray nothing came up that needed my response. I hope and pray Dell and dcpd2 did not look stupid. God. Why?
I dont take things seriously enough. Hoping to cruise by things. This after my disastrous lateness at my promotion ceremony.
I should have at least been brave enough to message Dell. But on a bit shaken by his comment to Leonard to be careful of how we present ourselves.
