50 shades

My thoughts on this pornographic book

Yes firstly it is just porn. 

It's disturbing on a few accounts.
He's a control freak she likes to be controlled.  There may be many people in this of sick relationship.  Where they hit and control and then pretend all is well with some meds.
They have sex way too many times. Not possible to go on like that. 

Malar 's wedding

So malar and jeroen 's wedding was a success!
After all that stress leading to the wedding the actual day was fun for all - bride groom their families and us .
Akshaya walked in leading the bride. 
She gave malar a chain which malar actually wore together with her wedding bangles!
My pink bangles went well with her pink saree and the orange with her orange.
Not thrilled by my choice of saree but was OK. 

Thank god for air conditioning!  Hehe so wedding was pleasant cosy. Only about 50 people. Just family and close friends . Actually friends was mostly just us! Begam sulaiman amelia annamalai and khair were the other friends.

Very intimate.  Whole crowd felt fully part of the wedding from beginning to end. My family was well represented haha! My parents my kids my cousins and my brother. Of the 50 guests we made up 10!

Food was good.
Jeroens  family is a gem!  So sporting ate everything . Didn't complain or make a fuss just went with the proceedings from beginning to end. Bless them and bless malar. 

We had fun decorating their hotel room think they really liked their stay at mbs . Saro drove them in the wedding car. Oh ya we decorated the wedding car too that was fun.
Yas subair and I did up the room with flowers and photo frames and candles and naughty toys and nuttella

And we left my phone in there playing mood music and forgot about it! Saro dropped off jeroen 's family at the airport. Good thing about Saro and me is we both actually love being hospitable and seeing our guests comfort from beginning to end. It's what Saro signed up for at the last ibcn and it helped make such  good impression with the delegates. 
So anyway ya all in all was a great experience ! Best weddings to help organise are our friends  . Plus he hehe. .. I think I organise good parties! 

I believe I met my match is lakshmi nateson too. Her party was better than mine are because she and husband looked like they were enjoying themselves fully too. Usually I'm a bit stressed at my parties trying to ensure everyone else is having a good time but she was chill. Ya.

What to do

What do you do when your body craves oily fried foods you know you should avoid? Like burgers with crispy fried chicken or packets of potato crisps? 

I've never been like that you know. Now I can't seem to stop want g such unhealthy fare

Sigh

Malar is getting married but she ain't excited.

Strange conversations with the boss

Strange.
I've inspired strange levels of confidence in my boss.
Glad he's grooming me to be internally appointed ad. It's something I've seem as long over due . But to be fair I never mentioned it to cedric.
Let's see where it all goes. 
But ... it would bode well to be cautious. 
He says bigger boss also confident in me. I would say be careful.
I also hear myself from past shunning accolades due to me and learning from it now.
Interesting. 

Demanding

Hug me. HUG ME! he commanded with an authority only a three year old could muster of his mother .
With the full knowledge of his right to be hugged by his mum

applying for the first time

for someone who had dreamed of becoming a writer, it really is a bit embarrasing that I am only now sending in anything to be considered for publication - now, at age 36.

well anyway,
I've read of course - I need to be prepared for rejection - even J K rowling got rejected over and over again - she perservered.

my problem of course is, I don't believe enough in the quality of my work.
but its okay

first pat on back - I wrote for 30 days, almost.

second pat on back - I'm actually sending stuff for a competition at last

third pat will come with some rejection I guess - maybe a paltry acceptance too, who knows. but a response is a response - a validation of me being brave enough to try, so the third pat, regardless of the response. 

Dream

I feel like I'm living in a dream
Floating along
Doing what I like
Borrowing books from the library trying new authors going back to old authors
Writing poetry
Sending for competition
Dreamy dreamy weeks
Work just there in the periphery

Romeo and Juliet

Balcony scene thoughts

Taught it before but seeing it anew now.
Rapturous in love
Innocent and yet so full
He leaps over the wall but she proposes!

Saro

Happy birthday my love
My sweetheart
My rock

My bestest friend
My soul mate
My dream

Thank you for being you
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for standing by me
Thank you for being my partner in crime!

I didn't know I could love for 12 years and keep loving
You showed me that is possible
You laugh with me and make life so sweet

I love you

I tease you for having said so my years ago that you couldn't live without me
In drunken stupor
I believe you told the truth haha!

I tell you now my sweet
I can't live without you

Happy birthday darling!

Jiak chun st back alley

Amos yee

I continue to be so disturbed by this case.
I'm also disturbed that we have become so conditioned to aceept things that most of us would not do what Amos has done. 

We would seeth inwardly at the injustice and irony and ridiculousness of the bail terms but would not have posted online and blatantly broken the terns getting our bailer fined and ourselves back in jail.

I find him openly criticising many things we would ourselves find Confounding but would not dare speak up or care to speak up.

An idiot slapped him on the way to court.  So despicable.