Wednesday, April 29, 2020

making babies

Age 1
Babies fall from stars 
into mummy's tummy..
He gurgles in delight. 

Age 3
His lips accidentally brush hers 
At the lift landing 
He clasps his mouth in horror
You and I are going to have a baby!
Not when mums and sons kiss, she reassures him 

Age 5
A nature show on tv
zooms in on two big cats. 
They are making babies chips in the elder sibling 
Are they married, he asks 
Yes, they are, she says.

Age 7
She is watching a movie
This is not for kids she says 
Are they making babies ? 
I know how they make babies he says happily. 
She switches off the tv.

Age 9.
Science textbooks tell all
Doing a headcount he announces
You and dad had sex 3 times 
She nods. Exactly 3. 
He understands
  


babies

When your baby clasps her arms around your neck 
You feel such a sense of love overflowing for this small person who trusts you so

making babies

He learns how babies are made
Age 1
Babies fall from stars into mummies tummy she says. 
He gurgles in delight. 

Age 3
His lips accidentally brush hers 
At the lift landing 
He clasps his mouth in horror
You and I are going to have a baby!
Not when mums and sons kiss, she reassures him 

Age 5
A nature show on tv
Focuses on two amorous big cats 
They are making babies chips in the elder sibling 
Are they married he asks 
Yes they are she says

Age 7
She is watching a movie
This is not for kids she says 
Are they making babies ? 
I know how they make babies he says happily. 
She switches off the tv.

Age 9.
Science textbooks tell all
Doing a headcount he announces
You and dad had sex 3 times 
She nods. Exactly 3. 
He understands. 


Tuesday, April 28, 2020

why can't I sleep tonight

Why can't I sleep tonight? 

Is it the coffee 
I had at 5,
the work 
I have not done,
the dreams 
I'm afraid I'll have? 

Is it the husband 
who's not home yet,
the baby who's 
tossing and turning,
the voices in my head?

Is it the movie 
I want to watch,
the thriller 
I want to read
the noises in the dark? 

Is it the workers
In their dorms 


Is it my guilt 
At being safe at home
While the workers 
Tremble in their dorms
Picking 


Maybe it's this poem
I need to write.

Why can't I sleep tonight? 

#spwm20 #spwm20day28 #insomniaprompt #jemstones #critifyouwant

poems to write

Hello prompt 
Questions prompts 
Lit quote prompts 
The two singapore poems where never the Twain shall meet 

Sunday, April 26, 2020

discomfort

I'm toying with a lot of discomfort right now
Labourers in my backyard have been having such a tough life 
And I dont help hard to feel proud of sg and sg this is home truly when I know we are treating our weakest so poorly 
It's no excuse to say hired labourers are working asia by the millions. We are not doing right by the 100 thousands in our midst. The handful so to speak 
Our tone to them is rude
We see them as less than people 

poem

It was your birthday yesterday 
It falls on the same as my peer at work.
So I can't ever quite forget.
As she cuts her cake, year after year, 
I wonder about you. 

You invited us over one day, many years ago, after we were both married 
You with your first kid.
 
I recognized Sri Devi, the first teddy bear I had bought you, 
sitting plump on your pillow.
In the display cupboard, two small puppy looked at me, as if to ask, remember us? 

I left your house in a daze
Knowing, nothing of yours 
Remains in mine, 
with only one question on my mind. 

Who is the more affected? 
The one who cannot let go
Or the one who can't bear to keep a thing?


Saturday, April 25, 2020

from an article

To ensure that Singapore’s migrant workers do not return to living in cramped and unhygienic conditions, eating subpar food, earning too little for their labour, and being treated as invisible beings in our society, we need to take a close look at the supply chain in which many low-wage migrant workers are employed, beginning with the construction and property development sector.

To ensure that Singapore’s migrant workers do not return to living in cramped and unhygienic conditions, eating subpar food, earning too little for their labour, and being treated as invisible beings in our society, we need to take a close look at the supply chain in which many low-wage migrant workers are employed, beginning with the construction and property development sector.
To ensure that Singapore’s migrant workers do not return to living in cramped and unhygienic conditions, eating subpar food, earning too little for their labour, and being treated as invisible beings in our society, we need to take a close look at the supply chain in which many low-wage migrant workers are employed, beginning with the construction and property development sector.

Friday, April 24, 2020

hollow

A hollow feeling prompts me to write 
The realization that we have an island within an island
A test, a control group, 2 case studies within one country 
And I the lucky one to be on group A. 

hollow prompt

Could I admit
I'm  a lazy reader
All these ________
Making me stop and think 
When I just want words to wash me over 



So here i start penning these thoughts 

Tuesday, April 21, 2020

two countries

It's like there are two countries here in one place 
No intermingling between the two
Just grazing the edges 
How could there be 1111 infections in one part of sg and 21 infections in another
Never the Twain shall meet 
An experiment  on people 
Control group in dorms 
Social distancing in the general population 
To prove a case we boil a few 

The migrant city in singapore 
An island within an island 
Spinning in such separate circles 
That we rarely touch 


Monday, April 20, 2020

unsafe

Reading the news 
I now realise 
I am afraid 
What people must
Think of
When they see me 

Dark skinned curly haired
They likely turn up their nose at me
Are they wonderingz
No they would know- 
I'm.the dirty filthy sort
Who eats with my hands
Sitting on the floor 
They could be thinking 
Go back to where you came from

They see me
And they see a country 
Filthy black unwashed 
They don't know 
This is my country 
I need to prove myself 
I was born  here I want to scream 
But that wont be enough

They see me 
And they know 
My folks couldnt have come here long before 
I stand there proof of their generosity is letting me live in their country 
Proof of filth they put up with 
And wish they could get rid of 

For the first time 
I am.afraid 
To be indian in my own country 

Thursday, April 16, 2020

trump

Just how much good 
Cam single president undo

break the rule

It's never been easier 
To break the rule 

I had dinner with my mum 
And broke the rule

I went jogging with my dad 
And broke the rule

I didnt dress up like a bank robber 
I broke the rule 

I ate at the kopitiam 
I broke that rule

I had an affair with my neighbour 
I was always breaking that rule 

ghazal

All I really love to do is read a book
When you do not look I have my nose in a book

I was a lonely and awkward child 
Till I found myself in a book 

With each turn of the page 
I vanish into a book 

Reading is reckless, I drown
Then resurface between books

As I stumble through life I wonder 
who is the worldly author of my book? 

Well jem dont you know anything? 
You can learn everything from a book 



my only buoy a book  


You never lack a friend when you have a book



Wednesday, April 15, 2020

I get my news

I get my news from Facebook 
Read books on my ebooks
Bookend 
Book shelf
Shelf books 
Rep all I may one day read 

Monday, April 13, 2020

tightening the noose

Like the slow tightening of the noose
Singapore moves towards a lockdown
My dad and I went cycling on friday. 
Monday it became illegal 
On sunday we went over to see my parents and have dinner as a family 
By Tuesday that became illegal 
First the events got cancelled 
Then the pools closed 
Then the schools 
The malls 
The beaches 
Next it may be the parks 
An injunction to stay near home

Will the noose tighten further or loosen come may 4? 
My prediction is that life will not go back to the same in may 

Nature trees flowes and children  
Without these life would be sour indeed 

The weight of a word unsaid
Hangs heavy in the air 
The tongue traces the shape of it'
Then retreats into the cave, safe.
 
It remains unsaid 
A fruit that grows heavier by day
When it falls
It may shatter the ground beneath us
Or
Leave hairline cracks that turn into ravines that 
Over time you skip over 
Lest you fall 
Into the abyss 


for Lucas chi yin

Welcome to this world baby
You come in crying wailing
Holding on
I imagine I can understand 
We drag you out kicking and screaming 
Into a world turned upside down 
How you must long for that safe cocoon 
But my sweet 
This too will pass
You are the bringer of light 
And world needs you now 
The world will heal 
We love you and are here
So smile now my little one
Suckle and sleep
All will be well

Saturday, April 11, 2020

all prompts to date

https://docs.google.com/document/d/10fZOOtFQ5lUUG5xL2qYR4j3HLW6EQAlW5whCZEC4oxA/edit?usp=drivesdk

how we spend our covid days

Having to stay home to work 
Saro and I go for morning walks
I got a new cycle and went cycling. 

Ashwin and aishu are drawing things.
Aishu from the doodling book and internet cartoon drawings
Ashwin skethiching animals and all from the web
From this endeavour we have a clock with the kids animals on it 
10 o clock has a fearsome gorilla while 2 o clock has a flighty hummingbird 
11 had a cute kitten and 7 o clock a blue narwhale 
12 3 6 an 9 have pretty flowers. 
It's so unique a one of a kind clock indeed

Then we have started gardening. 
We have ginger, onion, chilli, lemongrass, curry leaves, green beans, split beans, katrpura valli and three other plants we have no names for. Gonna start avocado soon. 

We cleared the kids clothes and folded them Marie Kondo style. Looks good kids are happy they can reach for their things easily. 

Cooking wise
We tried new kichadi, then not new but yummy pumpkin soup and bruchetta, 
I made an amazing marinara sauce for the first time yesterday using canned tomato puree. So we had vegetable farfalle marinara with onions tomatoes olives mushrooms capers red and green peppers zucchini and topped with coriander leaves crumbled feta cheese and avocado cubes. Sumptuous or what! 
Kids had chicken briyani after ages and loved that. 
Lots of home made cakes and cookies and murukku too. 

Thursday, April 9, 2020

my beautiful daughter

She is blooming like a flower 
I love her
So pretty too. Her hair. Smile. Dimples. Drishti suthi podunum

Tuesday, April 7, 2020

the good doctor

Foreign workers with their doctor

He moonlights at a clinic in Little India
"You need to take care of your self you know!"
"Have you been taking the tablets I asked you to?"
"How many times must I tell you, you need to keep drinking lots of water"
They throng to him
The foreign workers, far from home in this hot and yet cold land,
Nursing their broken arms, wracking coughs, fevered heads
To see this young doctor fresh out of medical school
Who cares enough
To scold them.

‐--------------------

Draft 2
He moonlights at a clinic in Little India,  
admonishes them in Tamil.
"You need to take care of yourself you know!"
"Have you been taking the tablets I told you to?"
"How many times must I tell you - you have to drink lots of water!"
They throng to him, the foreign workers, 
far from home in this hot and yet cold land,
nursing their broken arms, wracking coughs, fevered heads
to see this young doctor, 
fresh out of medical school
who cares enough
to scold them.
--------------------
Draft 3 
He moonlights at a clinic in Little India,  
admonishes them in Tamil.
"You need to take care of yourself you know!"
"Have you been taking the tablets I told you to?"
"How many times must I tell you - you have to drink lots of water!"
They throng to him, these foreign workers, 
far from their homes in villupuram, nagapattunum, puthupetti, 
One fell from the scaffolding -he was putting up French windows.  
Another suffers from tuberculosis
Yet another sits, delirious with dengue 

In this hot and yet cold land,
That they build up brick by brick
they yearn 
for the touch of the callused hands of their wives,
The eager cries of "appa" and " mama" from their kids, nieces and nephews the music of a language that waters their soul. 

So they come,
nursing their broken arms, wracking coughs, fevered heads,
to see this young doctor, 
fresh out of medical school
who cares enough
to scold them.



co workers

Today, working from home, I got a slight sense of what it might be like to have a lecherous co worker hitting on you as you work! 
Haha I exaggerate but well. 
Home based working day 3 Down!

covid comtinues

Lockdown begins today. Partial.lock down
Schools close from tomorrow till may 4
For now may 4 who knows
All other shops closed except for thos offering essential services 
Supermarkets, restaurants-only take out 
Announced on Friday. 
So we had 3 days 
What did we buy or get before the closure
1. New bicycle 
2. Library books 
3. Potting soil and pots and plants 

To cycle, read and do gardening.
Sweet ya. 

station 11

Reading.station 11 in these times is... chilling.. Cant get the word

After all the premise is that a flu wipes out 99% percent of the world population! 
It moves back and forth between the times before the flu and 20 years after, ad civilisation starts to rebuild itself 
As a character jeevan stock piles food and water at a supermarket (!), he says,
.. "feel there will be a before and an after ...." 


Wouldn't you be creeped out! All these echoes

A few chapters in, the world shifts to "20 years after the end of air travel".. 
Chill down my spine!

But as it progresses you also get  to appreciate all that you have. 
The writer uses defamiliariaation to make us appreciate so much we take granted for

Like about the aircon, the fridge, the language we use in emails


Monday, April 6, 2020

first the pool

First the pool was green 
Now it's nice and clean 
We still cant go for a swim though
Cos of the dreaded 
Covid 19

what if

What if
These two days 
are the last two days
Of school as we know it? 

What if
The last time we ate
Mee hoon goreng and prata 
Was the last time we ate together? 

What if
I chose to stay home to work
Instead of hang out at the zoo
With my two year old niece 
With the chubby cheeks and sudden smiles
Who is discovering 
Zebras and giraffes exist 
Outside of picture books
And now I've missed my chancem 

What if
I can never go back
To 12 hour shifts
After having revelled
In the simple pleasure of being
Present
With my children



Earth tells us: 
You have been working
Too hard too fast 
You have to stop
Now.

Slow down
B r e a t h e
Notice the trees reaching up high, 
wide open arms holding up the sky 
The flowers in riotous blooms of 
purple and yellow, spilling over 
The dancing descent of falling leaves 
Twirling through space as they touch down.

I need a rest. You need it too. 
I will keep moving
At my pace, my rhythm.
I have been here
Billions of years
You, but a few. 

Stop. Take stock. Savour. 
Reassess.
Rebalance.
I will still be here
For you. 

april

April ticks by 
Like a clock 

poem

 The infidelity pill
‐--‐--‐---------------------
I cannot meet you 
My love 
Kena contact tracing
How? 

Cannot meet oredi 
Kena contact tracing how ? 

Stamping out infidelity 
Since 2020
Covid-19 Sg


Sunday, April 5, 2020

sweet things

On friday pm lee announced he would address the nation at 4
At 3.30pm ashwin heard the news and got anxious
They are going to close schools. Aargh. 

There will be a lockdown. Aatha we better go buy all that we can or we wont be able to leave the house 

Wr will have to starve. Maybe we all have to beat only one meal a day!

Thursday, April 2, 2020

teleconference with hbl

Yesterday I had to chair a meeting on zoom . First day of home based learning for the kids. 
I put up a virtual background of a beach to keep the chaos at home from being seen. Only side effect , I looked kind of fuzzy around the edges. 

My son kept turning up at my beach,  despite my attempts to keep him out. Long division was getting the better of him and he had to know what the remainder was. 

Later he turned up under the table to ask for help, hoping he wouldn't be seen on my screen. Colleagues were mildly startled to see me disappear into the sea before popping up again. 
Quite the experience. 

beauty

There is such beauty in the world 
If we have the eyes to see it
A small tree laden with yellow flowers
Sun birds and bumble bees
Flitting from one bloom to another
Drinking sweet nectar
An orange to green to brown gecko 
Lazing on a branch 

day 2

Unsung hero prompt