Just re read hunger games

Again.
Like the fourth time.  Always the whole series in some order. Always unable to out it down. Seeing something new in it.

The horrifying feeling of watching civil war that I felt on first reading is not emerging again. Maybe coz that was when the Sri Lankan war had just ended.

What this shows. Rebels or rulers. All are cruel in the face of the need for the perceived greater good.   Taking down children. Their own . Thugs rule countries. Saints cannot.

And loss is intense and personal. 

Annie and finnick.  I wish she had let them survive. 

Was it necessary for her to go hunt snow? The rebel forces did it without her. Unless it's her showing up in capitol that derailed them and energised the rebels?

If she hadn't hunted snow at the end  finnick the crew and prim may have survived. The others she couldn't help. This I hold her responsible for.

Who penned the kids in though?  Capitol or rebels?

Some thoughts

Pimples hanging off her face like fruit off a tree

The rain drove the haze into the ground where it sat and brooded and then rise again the next day with new vengeance as if From the earth itself

Gandhi has a baby

I'm ridiculously excited that gandhi has a baby. I think I've been projecting my own feelings onto them. They've been married for ages easily 14 years. Handsome loving couple. No kids thus far. I always wondered if it was by choice or some reason like ours years ago. (Same with Leena and Raj).

I've also always thought gandhi wanted kids and maybe amutha didn't.  That made me sad (if it was ever true).

So now.. knowing they have a bay is get g me super excited. So much so I want to visit then if I can when I am in Perth later on! I'm closer to gandhi than amutha.  Hmm. ..

Jet lag

Now jet lagged in Singapore

Bloody jet lagged on day 2

Was ready to turn in. Checker phone
Urgent work message . Finished in an hour
1.15am to 2.15am
Then no sleep. 
Am tired
Cdn feel it in my body.
Had food milk read a book.
Nod going to listen to music see if that helps
This sucks

Gps

Having gotten used to the mind numbing unthinking following of the GPS I couldn't function beyond it even in familiar and proximal familiar surroundings