vietnam

Great start if you know.what I mean

and now I'm waiting to go for breakfast

wearing netted thongs. he doesn't know. but I'm feeling sexy already and it's just for breakfast. 

i think I'll definitely wear something like this for the flight back. 

update. nope. rather wear nothing than wear that stupid string haha. 

yesterday it started with a short bathrobe with nothing underneath. what was meant to happen after a shower happened before 

at night it was all about gauze and games. ended very well. just had a look at a video. looks better than I had thought. 

something about Vietnam brings out the sexual animal in me. all I think of is what to wear next to make me feel sexy, daring and seduce him along the way. feels liberating, and a bit dizzying too. I know from experience now this will wear away soon enough so not too worried and determined to make the most of it this trip haha. 

saro keeps buying me interesting things too. yesterday I wore a g string to a fancy dinner, even rode pillion on a  bike with it. 

now I'm wearing a flimsy string thing ad a bra

 later plan to change to peek a boo undies. too exciting haha. esp since sex is not possible we are sightseeing. so this is for the occasional arm brush and so on. rrr

14 years later

14 years later she's back

only this time I'm not crying

my previous papers I always had co writers. Jeff. Rani. 

now it's supposed to be py and me. but it's been mostly me. now she has come in to help a lot. 

still. mostly me. and I hear how crappy and unfocussed my writing is. I've spent hours. nights. managing a truck load of things. following samples of past papers. and still. 

but she is razor sharp 

.and I need people like this

if because of her feedback my writing improves that can only be a good thing right 

so I'll go do it.  i won't rush. 

I'll aks myself again and again what am I saying here? 

I do have imposter syndrome. like what am I doing here

i should just quit. 

but it's late. I'm so tired. I value a boss who tells me personally how I can and must do better.  I will grow. 

but God please help me. 

vanilla cake

checking if I recall the receipt 

3 cups flour

2 cups yogurt 

1.5 cups sugar 

1 teaspoon baking powder 

2.5 teaspoons baking soda

1 cup oil 

3 teaspoons vanilla essence 

choc chips + chia seeds 

set aside 3 cups flour 

mix the sugar and yogurt. dissolve fully. add baking soda and baking powder. leave aside for 5 min 

add oil and essence 

add flour bit by bit 

fold in choc chips and chia seeds 

vanilla cake

checking if I recall the receipt 

3 cups flour

2 cups yogurt 

1.5 cups sugar 

1 teaspoon baking powder 

2.5 teaspoons baking soda

1 cup oil 

3 teaspoons vanilla essence 

choc chips + chia seeds 

set aside 3 cups flour 

mix the sugar and yogurt. dissolve fully. add baking soda and baking powder. leave aside for 5 min 

add oil and essence 

add flour bit by bit 

fold in choc chips and chia seeds 

taylor swift

she is a force ro bring people together to feel happy together 

am so glad I was part of that. she is bringing together fathers and daughters and bringing families together for music. he encourages people to make gifts and exchange them with random strangers. friendship bracelets. such a sweet simple gesture. . isn't that something. diff kinds of music too. simple dance movements. love for her fans. for her family. 

she is a force. and I have been in her field. am so happy. unleashed creativity in us too. 

sri sri ravi shankar

some takeaways 

1. the breathing in and out of diff nostrils creates balance because it activates diff halves of the brain 

2. water/ liquids immediately after or during food dilutes digestive juices, so food doesn't get digested as well. so 30 min before or 1 hr after is good to have drinks. Hard habit for me to break but let's see, can try. 

3. lying on the left supports better sleep. less dreams. more restful

4..bumped into manjula, and Gemma try happiness course for myself and akshaya. with Dr teacher she recommends who is also a psychologist. 

5. when we are angry we punish ourselves for others mistakes 

things to consider 

1..happiness programma for me so I can gain some peace as I manage whata happening with akshaya 

2. consider the intuition programme for akshaya and ashwin. May do wonders? but can they would they want to sit for so long in classes. 

3. and go see a scanner for akshaya? sound like josiyam! .

3

dad

a taylor swift lyric had me in tears

saying something like I have a wonderful father 

his strength is making me strong 

that's my dad too.

aishu has a project in mind. a biography of my dad.  that she will ask questions and record and I can write it. I look forward to it. 

Reflections

so I would not have got to know and love taylor swift on my own 

I had to be parent of a 15 year old fan to know it

like how I got to know the very hungry caterpillar when she was one

I missed the baby shark phenomenon coz my kids had grown past that age

but.. I was privileged to learn about ts. amd be intricately part of the taylor swift phenomenon and story 

taylor swift the phenomenon

yay! July 7 we got the tickets. 

Mar 8 we watched the show 

and what a show! 

it was day 5. worried it would be meh

but... it was like day 1. coz trevis had flown down just for her show and was there! 

and she wore her yellow dress and did killer surprise songs 

and crowd responded to her like wow

and we were there! aishu and I high up

and akshaya and 2 friends in vip seats. 

amazing 

she gave credit to the planning and organising that would have gone into turning up that Friday for both Singapore fans and fans from other countries. 

loved her for it. and indeed there was so much planning just on our part

1. find someone worthy to get the list ticket. 

2. pay extra to get restricted view tickets for aishu and me

3. planning the costumes

4. making the bracelets 

5. going all over town last min to get more string and beads

6. getting glitter and using glue gun and nail polish varnish 

amazing. and she knew it and said thank you! 

she beamed when her dancers and singers  did cool stuff

she got us to to give it up for her opening act

she started dot on time 

got the crowd responding to her thru out

just amazing. and she sang for 3.5 hours! non stop and danced. and the wrist bands lit up in choregrpahy. and the stage lit up . and there were fireworks. 

what a show what a show! 

for reading

State Change” is a story about a young woman named Rina who lives in a world where everyone’s soul manifests in a physical object from the moment you are born, from Cicero’s stone to T.S. Eliot’s coffee can. Rina’s soul is an ice cube, required to be kept close to her and frozen everywhere she goes, which understandably puts a damper on her social life. Liu uses this concept as a clever allegory to speculate how one might live with such a limitation, treating Rina’s personal journey with empathy but also some light humor.

“The Perfect Match” was one of the better stories in this collection, imagining what a world would look like if, say, Apple and Amazon and Google all got together and decided to take over all our lives. The scary thing is that if this ever happened, we’d probably not even realize it. The story’s main character Sai shares every detail of his life with his phone so that the AI named Tilly can plan his day using his personal data to cater to his every needs, making suggestions that range from what he should have for dinner (she has a coupon!) to whom he should date. But what is a life without predictability and its surprises? As Sai grows closer to his paranoid and conspiracy theorist neighbor Jenny, he begins to question this himself.

The Literomancer” was probably even harder to read emotionally, because it is a sad story that ends with a punch in the gut. Lilly Dyer is a young American girl living with her expatriate parents in Taiwan in the early 1960s during the height of communist rule in China. Having not made many friends at school, Lilly immediately grows closer to a local boy named Teddy and his grandfather Mr. Kan who is literomancer, someone who reads fortunes based on written words. Mr. Kan tells Lilly stories, which she innocently repeats to her parents not understanding the unfortunate consequences that could lead to

The Regular” was my favorite story in this book, an easy 5 stars if I am rating it on its own. A perfect blend of sci-fi tech and crime noir, this is a compact tale starring Ruth, a private investigator on the trail of “The Watcher”, a serial killer who targets prostitutes—except what he’s after is not sex but something far stranger. It’s your standard murder mystery, but with its cybernetic sci-fi twist and fantastic protagonist, this one had me riveted from beginning to end, which isn’t something all mystery/thriller writers can achieve, even with full length novels.

my book ends posts

my monthly book ends posts are drawing attention it's so fun

people have reached out to me about reading the books and so on 

ahila,

sivakami alagappan! like she's never written to me before! 

amelia 

shahilla

then others talk about it like Richard. 

Hehe. so fun! 

taylor swift the phenomenon

yay! July 7 we got the tickets. 

Mar 8 we watched the show 

and what a show! 

it was day 5. worried it would be meh

but... it was like day 1. coz trevis had flown down just for her show and was there! 

and she wore her yellow dress and did killer surprise songs 

and crowd responded to her like wow

and we were there! aishu and I high up

and akshaya and 2 friends in vip seats. 

amazing 

she gave credit to the planning and organising that would have gone into turning up that Friday for both Singapore fans and fans from other countries. 

loved her for it. and indeed there was so much planning just on our part

1. find someone worthy to get the list ticket. 

2. pay extra to get restricted view tickets for aishu and me

3. planning the costumes

4. making the bracelets 

5. going all over town last min to get more string and beads

6. getting glitter and using glue gun and nail polish varnish 

amazing. and she knew it and said thank you! 

she beamed when her dancers and singers  did cool stuff

she got us to to give it up for her opening act

she started dot on time 

got the crowd responding to her thru out

just amazing. and she sang for 3.5 hours! non stop and danced. and the wrist bands lit up in choregrpahy. and the stage lit up . and there were fireworks. 

what a show what a show! 

taylor swift

she is in town

today is the day.we are going to her concert

please praying everything goes well

little one has a sore throat

Big one had knee pain all day yesterday 

please please please let today be a good day, a fun day where we have strength our legs and voices to enjoy a once in a lifetime opportunity. 

God you can fix this. they both got sickish like this after going to the temple. you can fix it. miraculously.  like how you got us tickets in the first place. please God fix it. let them be well enough to enjoy this day fully. 

love you God ! thank you God for helping us enjoy this marvellous day. keep taylor swift healthy and happy too. 

I love you God. 

what can I do better

I'm mad at him

coz he is clueless about his lit tests

but what about him 

he had not wanted to start the day being reminded of all the way he sucks

on a day he wanted to spend with you and sister 

world

I don't knownwhats happening to the world and I'm scared

I'm 45. that's...oldish I guess. 

and Ukraine had been at war 2 years now

Russia won't let go

how long more will this go on

Syria had been at war more than 10 years at least

gaza is being flattened and pummelled and the world is not able to stop it

its shameful

and I'm seeing it happen 

I was three when the polpot killed Cambodians 

I'm 45 and isralites are killing Palestinians and worse making their land unlivable so what happens when the war ends

will palestine have ceased to be

and the world just moves on

taylor swift spreads love and music all around.

that's good news. 

this... I dunno

30,000 dead in 5 months. 

countless injured 

babies with no parents. 

what a life to come into