Interview sucked

I've been in interviews where I know I will get through and where I knew I sucked- this was somewhere in between. Spent a long time with me just to reject me? Not sure - they might put a 'pending' on me.

Just feel like I did not convince them enough- I could have talked about what I've done here and how I hope to continue - lit text review comm assessment ipsg poetry master class but I only talked about leading the lit team- lit text review comm - none of these are master teacher work - they are CPo work

Only thing ok is literary ways of thinking -

Didn't tell them how I want to have systemic teaching for various levels of teachers - didn't tell them how I changed things after coming here and how they would be foolish to lose me:(

Not sure I want to try again another year - feel like I've been here too Long already! Staying on means staying on for another 2.5 years in fact while now its 1.5

I would rather call it quits at the end of this year and go fund my own studies.
Come back and work with Nus as has always been my dream - work alongside patke! And Susan Ang. And Holden. And Gilbert yeoh. Given enough of my self to moe.

Ok. How I did at the interview does not define me. I will study no matter what they say or do. If they don't finance I will finance my own way. We are leaving next year.