Missing friends

I miss my friends so much it hurts
I was jusy reeling off the list. That malar is in holland and sutha is in Ireland and Kannan and sham and subair amd Yasmin are in New Zealand..

And.. what was keeping me going and what i think was making them happy was that i was plannong a trip to see them in March. Sutha has holidays we can go around together see malar and her baby. It was a high point for me to look forward to.

I sound so selfish even to myself. But i need to be open about my feelings at least to myself right

Yes. Then the night sham and kannan leave amd my heart feels so heavy..  we find out saro's dad has cancer. That is just terrible. He's 70 going on 71 in two weeks.  Just never thought about cancer for a loved one. Foolish. Maybe. It's everywhere.

Praying for his smooth recovery. Been asking saro to go visit them. But saro and they have a nice common understanding. They didnt seem to think he needed to go and he too felt the same way.

He's so busy im worried for him. He's got no time to get in touch with how he feels about things. Its non stop for him. Work and he feels he's not giving his best there. That irks him. Its not in him to not give his best for things. And he's just recently been promoted.

He's also busy with Thaipusam planning and his toa payoh temple commitments.
And finally what is consuming him the most... the work to be done for the new business he's starting with his brother.  So many many things to do for that. Renovation. Inspections. Publicity. Hiring. Training. Setting up utilities. Paying salaries. Decorations. Open houses. The whole works!!!

And then his father's illness in the midst of things. He's not had time to pause process his feelings. I'm so worried for him. He looks haggard. His breathing is fast. He thrives on stress and challenges though i must say that.

So where is all this going? Saro's father may have his operation in march though date not confirmed. Im not sure to what extent this would affect my travel plans.
Lets say op is in early march. If all goes well saro should be back by end of second week and i can go third week. But all of it is uncertain.

Not sure what to do.
1. I could can the trip altogether.
2. I could visit my friends in feb when the chance of surgery is very low. Problem. Friends aren't quite ready to have me. Malar's folks will be there sutha will have classes. My work also will be affected.
3. I could book refundable tics for 3rd and 4th weeks as planned and keep fingers crossed. Worst come to worse i can the trip. Let friends know in advance to manage disappointments.
4. I could book 4th week march and 1st week april. Depends on work schedule too.