How

How do I say
I dont want to come
I want to stay home with her
How do I leave
Knowing
This may be the last time
I see her alive
What is this farce we are doing
Planning parties
Ganapathy homam
Moving her to a new place to depart from?
Maybe so
New place new views new feel
All this bitterness
May melt away

The party was a great success. I didnt go. Neither did arun.  We stayed with aaya
The rest went
The sisters all in matching dresses.
The sisters treated the family
Practically the first time in ever the family met as a whole without leaving anyone out.
I met my own bitter ghost from the past
It was ok
All cordial and lovely
I spoke nicely to nandhan arun source kalthi
Maybe a bit cold to anni but we have a history

I nearly well I did... burst out at mym mum
My interfering chithi saved me from saying too much
I dont like anni
But I saw their love for him
The poor ignored son
I feel a bit sorry for him too
I hate the games money plays with us
I pray to go I never get attached to money