sorrows

My dad started crying today. 

thinking of kanna

his father 

I hurt for him so qhen this happens

some days are good, he is above it all

other days, he us crushed by the sorrow of it. longing for my brother to come back to him

its heartbreaking 

to see a father yearn for his sons love and the son to he quite oblivious to it

but there are 2 sides to every story 

who knows what demons my brother is fighting 

I pray to God, before my parents time is here, my brother and parents reconcile properly. 

.the thing is, my brother may not even see a problem with the current arrangement. it suits him just fine. to talk to them once every 3 months see them maybe once or twice a year. not having deepa see her grandparents in years

 these give him peace! seeing them troubles his mind, dredges up old unwanted memories fears insecurities he feels threatened ill done by and so on. 

these are old battle scars. 

the constant infantilisation I think 

 helped him but made him feel less a man perhaps. 

but they never did anything that wasn't out of love.i pray he sees it. 

before too late

 

and makes his peace. 

and i pray my parents find peace too.