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saro is playing a dangerous game. one he may not even realise.

he is risking losing my love, affection and respect by giving so much of himself to the temple

perhaps that is more noble and he is willing to take the risk and pay the price. I cannot say. 

unfortunately I need him now. I cannot manage on my own to give my kids the time and love I feel they need. so some help and support from him is better than nothing. 

but does he want to be in a relationship where he is needed or wanted? 

these are things he must ask himself. 

how can  I respect a man who cannot say no, who cannot decide family matters and is a priority.  the world can  respect him and maybe that's what he craves. he can have it, at a cost. 

and need is not forever. so we can inch ever closer to the day I do not need him and can walk away. 10 years maybe? till aishu heads off to uni. 

and his kids will get used to not having him around, not needing him either. 

how much he is willing to risk?  one must applaud him. if he knows it. or pity him if he doesn't.