my heart

the other day akshaya was telling aishu how much she enjoyed the days preparing for ustav performance and i realised how her illness has taken away yet another source of joy for her. 

she used to love dancing

but she fell ill and couldn't go to as many classes as the rest and she fell back and lost motivation and now doesn't even have the strength to dance. 

i hate it hate it hate it

am so mad and sad