Stream of consciousness on LKY's passing, on 23 March 2015

Interrupted learning

When the mind is preoccupied by something

It is hard  - hard hard hard

To focus on something else

My grief is everyone’s grief

I want to yell

Or it should be!

But who am I to dictate this?

Last of all is for something to become farcical

A token

Like on a whatssap message – doesn’t mean much

Don’t we owe him a mention in our meeting as a unit?

I want to talk about it

But not sure what to say

This great man has passed.

He has passed and passed and passed

Will we soon become inured to this fact

Will this fact never mean as much as it does today, this day, this moment

Every further moment we approach the point of not feeling as much for it anymore

So how precious is this moment then

I just can’t listen to your earnestness seriously

You haven’t addressed the matter pressing on all our hearts and minds

Why do you do this

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I cannot smile

 I find it hard

Paralysis of the brain the mind

I want to cry to someone

Or do i

Do I only think I want to cry with someone

I can cry alone very well indeed thank you

I want to meet my parents and cry with them

I want to hug my husband and cry with him

I think I will visit my mum for a cry today

That sounds like a good agenda

At the temple, let’s offer a prayer – for him, his family and this country, his extended family

The man here is more than just his immediate circle in more ways than one

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Can we dream like this man can?

Shakespeare quotes on FB abound

·         Out Out brief Candle

·         Caeser

Some are born great

Some achieve greatness

Some have greatness thrust upon them

Above all else, to thine own self be true

People speak of complicated feelings

I have no such complications

“Devoid of humanity”

Really?

What do people expect

A saint ?

Show me the man who has done no wrong in life

Not even God – may I say so – not even God

Because of free will – god allows for mistakes too

And we sit here- condemning this man who gave us a place to live

I have nothing to say

I think

Any changes we want to make now we must make

We can make

We can contribute to this country – we can and must build it up

He has laid the foundation – we must build on it

If he’s shown us anything it’s that nothing is impossible.  

My heart is breaking

Today morning I cried, thinking only of my iyya and him

Two venerable old men

Visionary

People I admire

People I owe who I am and how I live to

The heart is heavy heavy heavy

My father is not having any complicated feelings of any sort!

Such a relief

In his mind – of simple black and white characters, simple narratives of heroes and villains

Our LKY is hero through and through

I just spoke with him and he tells me

“I think LKY is the greatest man of all! No man is as great as he is”

I qualified – many are great in different ways

He agrees – someone reluctantly – and then speaks of LKY’s unique greatness

“To create something out of nothing”

Something strong

My father my uncomplicated hero!