growth

how does a name grow in the head

 

said over and over at age 20

when the first crush took hold

became longing 

then joy 

and over and over over the years

though it got over in 2 years 

and over and over through marriage to another, 

children and kindergarten graduation, high school proms

silver anniversaries 

the name still echoing in the head

devoid now of original meaning,  no longer of a young man with brown eyes and soft hair who broke the heart, 

now just a name a manthra

a name i sigh  when tired overwhelmed 

a name I breathe into the air before turning to bed 

a name just a name now