Friday, October 20, 2023

India 2023

where and how do I start 
1. she does not have any disease 
2. she needs discipline to regulate her sleep and diet 

diet we are doing what we can. of course can do better but not too far off the mark.  more keerai and dates for sure. now gonna add kool maavu to the mix. and set a menu plan for 2 weeks to ensure all food goes in 

sleep. related to anxiety.  
we had a huge breakthru. akshaya opened up and talked to saro first then me about lots of things 

1. she feels she can't be herself 
2. she feels like hurting others and hurting herself. cutting herself 
3. she thinks ( knows) she is bisexual
4. her bedroom is her safe space and she feels anxious out of it

number 3. she seemed much relieved about having shared this with saro and me. and saro to his credit, just listened without judging. she sobbed after telling me, saying it mattered very much to her how I felt about it, more than saro. 

makes me reflect on this position of power we have over our children. constantly seeking affirmation and approval from us 

so number 3 ok. we are ok. just advised as with straight, wait. studies over. older more mature. no need to box yourself too early. but we are ok. Happy for her. 

what about numbers 1 2 and 4? 

maybe sharing 3 may reduce feelings for 1 and 2 a bit?
one can hope. 

must still be on alert. 

she wants to meet a psychiatrist and get medication for anxiety. 

I'm still not so sure

exercise food peace of mind

these are more long term ways of being 




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