Jump 2

My friend's son
jumped from the 21st floor
He had been grounded for a week
He jumped the weekend before the start of the exams .
He died 3 hours after jumping.
My friend
Rushed to see him downstairs
Gathered him in her arms
did not let him go
To be treated
She let him die
Rather than suffer a vegetable
She carries him still.

This child
Whom she followed home in her car as he took the bus the first time from school
Whose future wife she already knew she'd be resentful of for taking him from her one day
Is gone

He jumped
Breaking her wings
Even as he took flight

Tear me my heart
And give it to me in pieces

She says
I cannot manage my work or my emotions
I am lost
I have not been a good mother
I pushed him too hard
I am aimless
I dont have an appetite
I am ok i slept through the night
I am ok just very sad
Don't push your kids
Its not worth it
Let them do whatever they want