imagine going to school all happy and coming home to realise your pet has flown off
that someone left the window open and it flew off
I've managed to break the hearts of 2 babies and made saro and wiwit sad and cry too
it's been heartbreaking to see the little ones cope and express their grief.
" I don't care of my whole bed is filled with poop, I just want him back"
will he be alright?
how will he drink water?
what if the water is dirty ?
what if he gets sick?
they listened to mj's "you are not alone" in the afternoon
evening he played chinna kili vanna kili - the song we song to him all the time.
he saw the birds picture on my n
screen saver and burst into fresh tears.
he cries in the bath, home from the temple lying in his room.
she finished her class and just burst into tears full of worry for him
they love him so much
and I lost him
only grace.. he flies. he might be having an adventure of his lifetime. how I hope he remains unscathed and remembers us maybe.
I saw how human beings make up stories to help us cope
akshaya with everything happens foe a reason, God made aatha forget to close the window
now I feel how my mum must have felt regret
if there is one thing you wish you could do differently..
it's the worst feeling ever
he says I wish I had spent more time with him
he broke a coconut for him and wants to do archanai for him
he lit a lamp for him to pray
she wants me to sing sashti kavasam
am so glad both take to prayer for solace in extreme sorrow
he did burst out I don't believe in sashti. in the middle of sasthi prayers he flew out.
heartbreaking
they have other theories
he was a wild bird. came to precious owners for a short while, then flew off again, came to us for strengthening then flew off again.
he never did like going back into his cage. and was even learning how to open it himself to get out. but not to make excuses. I left the window open. and he flew.
she is afraid to get another one or pair of birds, to be broken again if they get lost or die
she said I thought I'd have him forever, till he died. (not lose him like this after school)
I don't know what to do
some mistakes are so irrevocable
mainly I've crushed these two
they are young they will recover.these are life lessons but still. it's hard to see. very hard to see
saro cried coz of the depth of their sorrow.
I feel guilty
I wanted him to be quiet for Nov 10 to 12 all the events I'm running. now he's gone
I left the window open
and he's gone
true, first chance he had, he took off. what does that say
he's always wanted to fly
he's able to fly so we'll
but... can he find food and water and flee from predators?
that's the thing isn't it.
pray God watch over him. pray God fly with him. lead him to food and water and shelter
I took them, leaving a window open is an accident that could happen anytime and if it had to happen I'm glad it was me and not the kids or wiwit. of course all three were more careful than me. I suck. I just don't take things seriously enough.
so we spoke to someone who had seen him yesterday. he flew all around to the carpark behind. not sure he can find his way back. and he flies a super flier. a day is a long time to fly. God know where he is now. angels watch over him please.
and if its meant to be, bring him back to us.
the youngest sprouted philosophy last night at the lift near the end of our search
" if your pet flies away, and it comes back, it's yours. if it doesn't, it never was".
never has so anything so profound been said to me at such a right moment by such a young person.
I was floored.
nevertheless
the day sucks. today will be hard foe the kids. just like yesterday. sucks..
we were talking about him yesterday. he was sharing all that he loved about him as he lay on the bed in his room. how he would stand on the stand gnawing at the wood. jump on their heads.
I had one chance when he was at my own window. that gave me hope he'd come back. I was so near I could touch him. I held the bowl and phone for him to get onto. but he took off in a flash.
his call is so loud and distinctive.
another theory, he left to find a mate. who knows what is right or real.
maybe the only real things are
I left a window open
he flew out
my children loved him
now they are heartbroken
they had such an emotional roller coster yesterday
came home happy
laughed Iike crazy when saro said he'd flown
searched the whole house frantically
then burst into loud inconsolable tears.
then ups and downs rhe whole day
temporary relief with TV, pizza, temple, prata, then it hits them again.
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