anxiety poem

a poem to invoke anxiety 

Inside my 15 year old head

I can't go to school

everything hurts

I can't stay at home

I won't get anything done 

I can study from home

pace myself 

but I'll never catch up

how will I do my exams? 

Family holiday in June, India 

cousins will be there

but what if I feel sick then? 

where will i get a quiet cool room to rest in a communal home?

it will be hot, june! 

What if I never get better? 

Should I take a break this year? 

I will feel left behind.

But I can't focus I can't.

I hate school. 

I wish I didn't have to ever go to school

Should I home school?

there's a curriculum there too. 

what if..

how will I.. 

when will I 

what if..

. 

what if I don't