never understand

A child will never understand a mother that did not want it

who tried to end its being before it emerged

or who gave it up 

Never asking to be born,

being wanted is its birthright, it thinks

It doesn't know of the world 

in which its mother lives, 

with its never ending demands on her,

that when she did give it up 

she could have been 

sobbing that a part of her 

was cut away forever 

that she may have been 

little more than a child herself 

whose own childhood was stolen

by the cards life dealt her

or that she may already be a mother

with other mouths to feed, to clothe, to educate 

that she may have had to give up of herself

little by little till there was almost nothing left to give, to be

It only knows it is born, 

it yearns a mother 

and expects her 

to want it

to love it

forever.

#jemstones #noprompt #opentocrit

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inspired after reading a part of the book" Stone Gods" by Jeannette Winterson