no matter

No matter how many times 

I watch Ferdinand

I cry

for all the bulls that don't have  

a flower in their mouth

to give the matador to spare them

                                               I am AI

                                       I cannot cry

No matter how many times

I read the Outsiders 

I cry 

for Johnny yearning for his mother's love 

for Dally who only ever loved Johnny 

for Darry, who loves Ponyboy so much he slaps him

                                               I am AI

                                       I cannot cry

No matter how many times 

I tell myself not to, 

I cry 

over P6 Math problems

that I cannot solve 

without reducing the boy to rubble

                                               I am AI

                                I failed P6 Math 

                       I think I wanted to cry

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#bonusgpt #confession #opentocrit #wip