I have decided to let go
That's big
It's the first time I'm deciding I'm not going to work at the relationship
That I'm not going to bug him for date nights to stay connected
I'm entering a new phase. One that will allow me to let go
It's what I wrote yesterday
I'm in a child rearing partnership
Not a marriage
In this partnership then there are no couple obligations
Only child rearing ones
That will free me from the burden of having to set up dates and fret when there are none.
It won't be easy but it's a start.
I must remember this date so when I look back I don't say I don't know how it happened or when
Navarathiri day 1. Oct 13. 2015.
I'm also mentally preparing myself for us to go on different paths as we grow older.
It's not growing old together as I once hoped for
Its growing side by side
Parralel play sort of
Let's see.
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