Heavy

The heart is heavy but a little less so after talking with sham and sutha

looks like we need to talk. Talk we will.
He's quite perceptive noted I'm more upset after the email than before.

Let's see.

Wrote to him pointing out his taking me and my parents for granted.

2 years ago had an emotional scene with him. Told him I missed him.

He just doesn't see things the way I do and I am mighty tired of being the hand that bothers to clap

Two hands needed to clap. Other sie it's just air. Lots of air from me recently. 

Only thing. If I decide to let go I can't be cheery. That sucks. 

I want us both to be happy cheerful to call each other during the day make effort to connect.
It's so easy to lose connection

It's okay we do other things but stay connected.