worth

Listening to the song Ganapathyae..
kavalaigalai theerkum ...

are my kavalaigal worth theerkaraning? small as I am, I am important to God. he brought us together for a reason. and he loves me. he will protect me, strengthen me, protect me when I am hurting inside, when tears spill from my eyes, when my throat constricts and lips purse up to control my emotions

even my mother noticed that my bubbliness is not there. I love her. she knows me so well.
push comes to shove my mum will support me.

why would he want to care for me. that's what I can't figure. I can't see myself value adding to his life in any way.
I'm wasting my life feeling sorry for myself.
I need to look within for strength and belief not without

I need to believe I am contributing in some ways that I have worth
if  not to him at least to my parents, my children
my friends, my colleagues, my work

should I tell him that I am not feeling valued at all